Thoughts on YouTube & Ze Dead Stuffs

I wrote only about YouTube so far. Hehe guess where I spend most of my time, huh? Anyway, this blog really is on my opinion, and because of past events, yeah heh, it's there. So yeah, my thoughts on YouTube, just in general. 

YouTube has really grown in such a short time. In 2000, Google bought a website practically nobody ever heard of. In that relatively short time, it EXPLODED. Look at YouTube today. So many different people, so many different channels, so many videos. But is it really for the better? 

You could literally be lost among the traffic on YouTube. It will swallow you up. And if not, if you stay afloat, the people will roast you alive. When I first started using the internet in elementary and middle school, the communities were rather small, and people were given support. It was a positive vibe, and it rarely got out of hand. You had pretty awesome, genuine YouTubers who kept it REAL. Now, not so much. Sure, there are some oldie but goodies that stay true to themselves, but those are rare and scattered. Now, almost everybody is some kind of vlogger. 

Take the Beauty Guru community, for example. Back in the day, those girls gave actual tutorials. They were actually helping, and that was why viewers kept coming back. Nowadays, you see a makeup tutorial for practically EVERYTHING. Who needs that much makeup tutorials for the SAME EXACT smoky eye? The older beauty gurus, running out of material, decide to review and critique and advertise products. Make a 7 minute video about 1 product. *cough cough juicystar07 cough cough allthatglitters21 cough cough michellephan cough cough ilikeweylie cough* They became sellouts. Even Queen Beeauty, THE guru of her time, left because of that very reason. 

YouTubers now get so much hate. Queen Beeauty did. TradeChat does. Jlovesmac1 does. Leda did. The YouTube community is just filling with more and more negativity. Yeah, haters gonna hate, but today there is 10x the many haters of 4-6 years ago. People were more supportive and positive. Back then, somebody was MORE likely to exit out of a video than troll and offend in the comments. Back then, only responsible individuals had access to the internet. Now, everybody, sane, insane, troll, serious, hater, fan can comment like no tomorrow. 

YouTube also used to be so much more about individuals just filming funny or otherwise entertaining stuff. When it literally was "Broadcast YOURSELF." Now, companies can make accounts and advertise. Already famous people can just keep their fame going. YouTube was more about the YOU back then, more so than now. You could even interact with people more, back then. You could actually give stars, rather than just a thumbs up or down. You could look in the sidebar, rather than the bottom bar. So much more convenient. You used to message over YouTube. And whatever happened to actually NAMING your channel some crazy name, instead of just putting your Google+ name? Seriously. The whole thing was just smaller, more individualized. 

Also, YouTube used to be more diverse and unique. When before, people who made videos were fun but DIFFERENT people. Nobody heard of YouTube yet, so only the "antisocial" people (if you can call them that, but I personally prefer unique) made videos to put on the internet. Nowadays, any plain ole Joe can put out videos that have nothing special about them, content wise. 

So YouTube definitely changed, but imo for the worse. I thought about making videos, but now, I really don't know. I don't really want to become part of that. I guess I sound like such a hipster, but I will be looking for something less mainstream. 

More Tangents on Leda

Leda has been on the internet for so long, that I feel she lost herself in it. As many of her viewers noted, Leda was VERY fluctuating and shifting. Though many viewers claim it was from her boyfriends, I think the viewers themselves played a BIG role in it. 
There was always at least one comment on every single video that asked her to change, or "be more (insert adjective)." Some were telling her to "grow up," while others "missed her scene/raver phase." Some supported her going into her "anime" phase, some supported her "fantasy" phase, some supported her "witchcraft" phase (whatever that is supposed to be). Leda was always getting mixed opinions, and DUH, ANYBODY would be confused by that alone! Leda stated in her goodbye video that she "tried many different things," regarding videos. That meant exactly what it said: she tried many styles, many approaches, and she did not like where she was going. So good job, haters. You got what you wanted.
Leda did not enjoy making youtube videos, and it was clear for a long time. When she started REALLY changing and abandoned her channel for that period, it was crystal clear. And there is nothing out of the ordinary about that. Anybody would only do something they genuinely enjoy. She sacrificed. Put yourself in her shoes. 
As one comment said, she was officially bullied off the internet. She had so many negative comments, and it is horrible what people could say when they think they are being "anonymous." Yeah, no. You never are. It will be found out, eventually.

That being said, I do love Leda so much. She deserves to be happy, just like anybody else. A year, two years ago, she was pretty happy, and it showed. Her videos were AWESOME. I wish Leda a good and speedy recovery from the emotional scars that the internet gave her. I hope she can pick up and go on with her life. Even though YouTube was a big part of her life, it changed and stabbed her. For the time being, yes she does need to cut it out of her life and heal herself. A shaman can't heal a paladin when the said shaman's own mana is low. Currently, Leda's mana is near zero, sadly. But Leda should realize that even though she got so much negativity, she has many supporters who respect her and would never bring her any harm. Good luck, Leda. May you heal and flourish like the White Tree of Gondor. 









P.S At least she did not one of her accounts :) It is still there! Yay! Won't tell you which one though, lol haha ;) hey, it is her choice, her privacy, though sooooo....

TradeChat Thoughts of Le YouTube

She has wacky hair, and loves World of Warcraft. She was on the first season of King of the Nerds. Her YouTube videos center around video games and pc games. Her channel name is TradeChat, and her online alias is Panser. She is amazing at what she does, and should keep doing it. Her videos are funny, to the point, and VERY informative. She stands and talks to her audience very much like a solid news anchor who knows what she is doing. Go her! 

But the videos that REALLY reel me, personally, in are the ones where she relaxes, where she interacts, when she acts like her natural self, and we really get to know more about the person behind the "YouTube mode gamer Panser." In her Girl-on-Girl interviews, Panser really just talks and holds a conversation, a chat, with various awesome people. In her Derpcraft series, she and Iamchiib quest in World of Warcraft, while chatting and generally derping around everywhere. These kinds of videos, I love, and find myself watching again and again. The more rigid and informative ones, I kinda eh, gloss over, unless it is on a topic I am looking for more information on. 

And I LOVE how Panser and Leda are friends! They just work so well together! If you haven't seen my earlier post, I do love watching HaiLedaBear. Here are two videos of Leda and Panser together. They are just so AWSUM <3! 

Panser and Leda Girl on Girl Interview Video. Go watch it, it is one of my faves, and is hilarious. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L9WEA8uc94w

Panser and Leda recent video from their time spent together two to three weeks ago. 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K5sN9nIsrlc

HaiLedaBear, LedaMonsterBunny, Ledafknbanana. My Wish.

After a long morning, I sit in the afternoon, and decide to check up on one of my favorite youtubers: HaiLedaBear. A quick youtube search does not bring up any of her own videos. Questioning, I move on, and search again. This time, the first video that comes up is titled "I love you guys infinitely." There are no other links to Leda's actual channel. I decide to watch the video, and open up to a crying Leda with pink hair, pouring her heart out.
Twitter account deleted, blog deleted, all youtube videos deleted. Nothing left. Gone. All in a couple of days after her channel started to pick back up. Her viewers are left questioning, guessing, and searching for more answers. Looking through the comments on the video, I see many comments of genuine subscribers, sorry for her pain and sorry for her departing. I see unconfirmed rumors (that actually just MIGHT be true, but not confirmed by Leda as to my knowledge) of her and her family being sent death threats. I see many people who encouraged Leda to stop making videos. I see her being called "immature and stupid." 

Leda has a history of being hurt by these people. She made multiple "proof" videos on her old channels, the most recent one/two years ago. She was hacked multiple times on her channels. She once made a video titled "Wish" because people were getting to her, and hurting her. She was made fun of in the comments of her videos. Many people hurt her before, and keep doing it to this day, even after she deleted everything. 

Not only are her haters crazier than many other youtubers'. Her fans are also pretty extreme. Old pictures of her were hunted down from MySpace accounts, PhotoBucket accounts, and Instagram. They never stop. They want more, more, and more. They creep on her, discuss her past. They want answers to questions that came up but never answered. Nothing was ever forgotten with LedaMonsterBunny. Every move of hers would be found and published to other eager fans. At least now they came in handy. At least now we could be left with something of Leda, like a ghost of YouTube past. When videos were genuiner, when  she was happier. 

I loved watching Leda. I could watch her for hours, and I, too, was sad when her channel drifted off for a while. And I was glad when she started back up. Leda was my inspiration. She made me want to make YouTube videos, myself. Now, I guess I don't really want to. What is the point? The prime of her time, the one I adore, passed. YouTube now is not what it used to be. Leda was hurt by today's YouTube. I guess we can't live in the past, and have to accept that no matter how difficult, everything goes on. Nothing is permanent.

It does not mean that I don't miss the girl with the Pokeball tongue piercing, who taught us how to put makeup on while listening to Ghost Town (won't be able to listen to their music without thinking of her), wearing kandi bracelets, playing WoW, fangirling over the Lord of the Rings, and saving cats. I will. I wish her the best of luck. I wish her happiness and prosperity. I hope she finds what she is looking for, and I hope she will never shed a single tear ever again. I hope she will have many good times with her friends from the present and from the past, with her family, with her cats. I wish her the best. I will miss her.